Another trip around the sun always makes me recommit to being my most authentic self. Makes me remind myself of the difference between selfcare and self-compassion. Cultivates in me that thirst to remain grounded in the present but hopeful for the future. This turn toward the big 4-5 has been no different.
Years ago, when I was in Wyoming for the Trial Lawyers College, a dear friend and colleague reminded me to tap into joy. And I have. Mostly.
The last year presented some personal and professional challenges. In most circumstances, I pushed down the pain and moved through it or around it. Some work still to do.
In the last several weeks amidst some personal disappointment and breakup, it has highlighted for me that though I am healing from heartbreak, that my heart is more open and ready than I believed it would be.
A dear friend suggested another book for me to author… I know, another one?! This one he says should outline the antics of my dating life, explain the anthology that is my marriage (and divorce) history, and cover how a woman who seemingly has it all, has not found a partner to share the “all” with. He says it should be called “I Wanna Dance With Somebody”. And I relish at the idea. And what a title!
My excitement at another writing project is saying a lot. Because I am currently already writing two new books for publication – one is Book IV in my Shaping the Battlefield (STB) trial practice series. This one is on Panel Member Selection and Member Instructions. And the second book is about me. I am calling it @MessyMilitaryLawyer: Why I Strive.
I weave back and forth between the two book projects because covering the history of how I came to be is, at times, painful. When I need to remove myself from the feels, I dip into the “How To” of the STB project. Because coping.
So, as I countdown the last few hours until I am yet another year older, I choose to remain grateful for the voice I have cultivated, the opportunities I have developed, and the force that stands before you. In humility and with compassion.
Because I do wanna dance with somebody. And I know a worthy partner wants to dance with me.
Jocelyn Stewart is a UCMJ court-martial attorney who specializes in defense of allegations of sexual assault for all branches of the military worldwide.
Contact the Law Office of Jocelyn C. Stewart at 253-212-6940
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